Thank you..friends..

These few days, I think I've been keep on thinking about my friends. Realizing I've been isolating myself from them, I guess there seems to be an empty space. I may have my own reason from keeping myself away or keep a distance from people. It is for a fact that we can never live all by ourselves in these lonely world. Maybe along the way we just sometimes needs to be with our one true self. So that we can listen what ourselves have to say. Maybe when we spend too much time with people, we tend to ignore the most important person in our life. Ourselves. What we want, what we like, what makes us happy, the person we wish to become. I guess it's true that we tend to be like the person we spend our time the most with..just maybe. 

I may have like Korean especially my most beloved Super Junior. I started to love them after seeing their adorable character and seeing them simply makes me happy. But, I could never lie to myself that I never forget my other idol, Devotees. Two idols from two different world. Both idols play such role in my life especially during my difficult times. They taught me a lot in their own way about life. I started to get to know Devotees when a friend talked to me about them during my third year in the university. And I started to really like them in 2008 when I was working as a research assistant at UKM. I may have my own reason why I like them and somehow they just keep on being my idol up until now which is already three years. Their songs help me to keep on being strong to get through life by believing that Allah will always be with me as long as I have faith in Him. I discover some kind of happiness by getting to know Allah more and more. Without even realize it, I just want to get close to Allah. 

My nasyid idol, Devotees

Super Junior in "Haengbok" music video

While Super Junior started to come into picture when I feel so in the dark. I just feel like watching their music videos titled "Haengbok" which means Happiness in Korea. I was so into their naughtiness and playfulness which keeps me smiling and laughing. I learn to be happy by seeing them being happy. Maybe I learn different kind of happiness from them. What I like most is that they have each other supporting each other and being happy with each other. I feel sort of jealous maybe. Thinking about it, I started to like Devotees, when I seeing them performing a friendship song, "Sahabatku". I guess my heart really treasure the feeling of belonging to a special person called "friends".

Last night I feel like being the worst person in the world. I feel like I've wronged so many people including my friends. By keeping myself away from them maybe good for me as I may need my own prime time. I guess somewhere in my hearts I know I miss them. And they miss me too. But I was afraid. I was afraid of getting hurt. Somehow, I managed to gather the courage to let them know my situation and keep in touch again. Letting them know how much I miss them and remember them. To all my friends, thank you for being my friends. Thank you for thinking about me, thank you for missing me, thank you for keeping me in your heart. Thank you..friends..