My 1st Syawal at Bangi

It's 4:19 pm on 1st Syawal. I was just get back from Alamanda with my beloved brother. We just looked around buying some needed things at home. Usually, around this time during the previous year, we'll be getting ready packing things up to go back to my mum's hometown. Finally, I get the feeling of celebrating this wonderful Syawal at MY hometown (sounds selfish eh..). It does feel different without all the sounds of the small kids shouting wanting this and that, all the women chatting this and that and the teenage (haha..the ladies) smiling and laughing over our beloved adorable Korean guys. I think it has been two years since I've been infected by this so-called Korean waves virus. At first I was just appreciating their (my junior and cousins) interests and passion for these Korean thingy until I began to fall deeply in love with the Super Junior on 2010. The year which so many things came my way when I was struggling hard to achieve my dream achieving my second degree and these adorable, sweet guys suddenly become my idol (after  Devotees). I'm listening to their songs at this very moment.

I wonder what my relatives back at Johor are doing right now. None of us went back to my late grandparents house as we can no longer stay in there after heavy flood at Johor for the fourth time if I'm not mistaken. Lots of things happen to our family. Good things and bad things..hey..we just never know. Every little thing happens for a reason. We as His servants should have faith in Him for all the things he has planned for us. I miss our times at Johor yet I am enjoying myself here at Bangi. More like I know how to entertain myself here. Reading my favorite book, listening to my favorite songs or simply do some housework. I'm gonna have this whole one week in fact all the time before I get a job or pursue my studies (who knows I might still have that chance) to plan for what's next. Yupe, I should go and perform my Asar prayer now. Until then...

Welcoming Aidilfitri, Missing Ramadhan

Just chat with a friend and she's been suggesting to me to do this blogging thing since it's a good way for me to express my feelings and generate all my thoughts into words. Yupe, there are so many things I wish to share yet don't have that one good place to share it with . I once involved in this blogging thing yet decided to quit cause I feel like my writing were not exactly what I wish to share. I did invited a few "friends" as my reader because I made it private and yet I didn't feel the connection there. I mean between me and the reader. Maybe we were not that connected in the real world. There are times I feel like cutting all the connections I have with people. I isolated myself from people. Funny, I do still have some connections with a few people I felt close with. People I feel like I can be who I am, express my true feelings without receiving hurtful judgments and all. I am being thankful for that. I should learn that not everyone has the gift to being empathy. Maybe I should learn to be empathy as well. 

Currently, listening to a song by my beloved Super Junior from their 5th album.I'm thinking what I want to do for my life next. I will receive my second degree this September on the 39th Convocation at UKM earning my Master degree in Molecular Biology. Tak sangka, akhirnya Tuhan memakbulkan doa saya selama ni nak memiliki segulung ijazah lagi. Walaupun jalan yang dilalui penuh ranjau, alhamdulillah, syukur tak terhingga atas segala pertolonganNya disebalik semua kesusahan tu. Jalan yang perlu ditempuh masih terlalu panjang dan saya masih tercari-cari hala tuju kehidupan yang seterusnya. Bekerja, menyambung pengajian ke peringkat yang lebih tinggi, berkahwin..hmmm, banyaknya..Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku dan bantulah aku mencari hala tuju kehidupanku. Kurniakanlah aku sahabat yang sudi untuk menemani aku melalui perjalanan yang panjang ini. To my friends..Latifah, Ila, Aji, Jannah, Dr Lee, Kak Aida, Nuru terima kasih atas segalanya..Some of you I only met for a short time, yet it has been meaningful.

Two days to go before Syawal is coming and I know that I'm gonna miss Ramadhan so much. It has been a blessed that I was given by God all the time to appreciate this Ramadhan. It's gonna be my first experience celebrating Syawal at Bangi and I like it. My own hometown. Until then..