I Miss You Grandpa..

Hari tu masa berborak dengan mak, somehow my mum mentioned about my late grandfather. We called him Atuk abah. Mum said that even though grandpa can be grumpy at times, when he wanted to say something to his children, he said it in a very gentle manner. As if he understands ones problem. I miss him..He passed away during my third year at the university. It was hard for me and the family. A week before he died, my family members went back to his house because that year, there were heavy flood at Johor and our area was badly affected. They went back as the water level was decreasing and the people were starting to clean up whatever they can. I heard that my younger cousins were having fun playing around with the water. I decided to stay back here at Bangi as I got stuff to take care of and the house was in a big mess. 

I think it was on Tuesday evening when I don't feel like taking my handphone with me out and when I get back home I saw my brother was waiting for me. When I got out of the car he just said "Grandpa has passed away" and I saw one miscalled from my cousin when I get into my room. It was hard..We went straight to Johor after my cousin reached Bangi. I couldn't help crying in the car.

My heart felt heavier as we reached grandpa's house. I saw people were reading Yassin inside. I grabbed The Yassin book, sat next to the deceased and read the surah. Tears just keep on flowing. Right next to me was one of my cousin and I felt stronger by having her next to me. I was tired yet I couldn't leave where I was seating as that would be the last day for me to at least do that. It was hard yet I felt stronger by having the other family members with me. 

I miss you Grandpa..I miss hugging you..I miss talking to you..I miss holding your hand..I just miss you so much..