A challenging November

I hope this time I am writing a proper entry. Ahh..banyaknya benda yang berlaku bulan November. What a challenging month for me. Making the right decision, grabbing the opportunity given, trusting and having faith in myself, and I guess one thing I never thought would be so hard to do which is leaving my comfort zone. Pada 1 November 2011 saya telah ditawarkan jawatan sebagai seorang Pegawai Penyelidik di FRIM, Kepong. Masa tu tak sure sama ada nak rasa happy atau sebaliknya. Friends were congratulating me yet perasaan saya berkecamuk. Finally saya ditawarkan job yang baik di tempat yang baik after about a year struggle cari kerja sambil habiskan tesis saya dengan jayanya. 

My family members were quite worry at first. Some friends kata "Kepong je, still dalam Selangor". Yes, I know that too. My dad kata saya pernah pergi sana masa kecik-kecik dulu naik Canopy Walk kat sana. Ada kot memori sikit-sikit tentang tu. I am so not good at putting my feelings into words. I think I'm better at reading them. I guess it's true, dalam setiap kesusahan tu pasti ada kemudahan. Yupe, dalam-dalam saya cuba untuk accept the fact yang I'm leaving my comfort zone for the better, I am struggling mentally and physically since saya memang bukan jenis yang suka keluar rumah and my world revolves around my home, Bangi, UKM and MGI. Yeah..maybe sometimes Alamanda (untuk melepaskan tension) yang tersangat lah dekat dengan rumah. Oh dear, it was hard. After seven years lintang-pukang berguling-guling bertungkus-lumus demi cita-cita..I just can't believe that it's finally time to get out. I should be grateful, cuma yeah...it was hard.

When I really think about it, yupe, masa nak further study dulu pun saya diuji dengan macam-macam dugaan. And I can see that it does lead to something good. Thank you Allah for that. I am still adapting with my new life, new environment and new people. It should be good, isn't it? Cuma, I just need time. No need to push myself too hard. Like Yanti said "Relaks-relaks lah Nadzirah". Lepas ni kalau orang push-push saya buat pekak je lah kan. Dah sebulan kot...almost sebulan lah saya dengan life baru. I see such a great oppurtunity for me to stretch my potential and becoming a better person and a better scientist. It's a great opportunity for me to sharpen up my scientific skill and knowledge. The sacrifice should be leaving my beloved home. Funny, just one hour away (kalau tak jam), itu pun dah rasa terseksa. I've been given a chance by Allah, to be chosen by Him to meet such great scientist in a great lab. Allah, thank you..

Dear Allah, kuatkan lah diri ini untuk menghadapi apa jua cabaran. You know best how I feel. Please guide me all the way. Help me to become a better person, a better muslim, a better scientist, a better daughter and a better friend..Amin..